Sunday, February 28, 2010
It's now after lunch and I'm seated in front of my computer again... thinking about what I wrote in the morning. I mean, it's really true feelings because I experienced it personally; it's not something that I wrote out of daydreaming.
But it's no point thinking too much about it. You see, the more you think about something, the more engrossed you become - then the more feelings you generate from just one small incident. It's always such emo-ing sessions that things get blown out of proportion. So... I guess it's best to put it aside and not to think about it.
Going to study physics soon... good luck to my class tomorrow for physics. :)
Snowman left his prints @ 1:39 PM
The heat is getting unbearable these days...
Wake up in the morning already feeling heaty. Consuming more water than usual.
I hate El Nino. :(
How I wish I could have done better. Something is bugging me recently but the more I think about it the worse I feel. Every night I put myself to sleep thinking it will get better next day but it doesn't always happen. Everyday is like a sine curve, ups and downs, though I prefer more ups than downs.
Sometimes I can't help but feel what the next day will be like. I know it always starts off good - but at the end of the day it may not turn out like what you expect it to be. Things like a smile can end your day happily while others, like the face of irritation, frustration, anger, annoyance... they set you thinking what has gone wrong and thus your day ends up in a pool of perplexcity. Though these feelings may be short and temporary, they can accumulate long term and destroy the inner self of a person. That is why when marriages break down, people often are pushed to the brink of insanity. And when that happens, things spiral out of control.
I wish I can repair the things that didn't turn out well in the past year. I wish I can change for the better. I wish I can make better impressions on people. I wish I don't have to worry about what I've done wrong because it is very bad on one's mental health (I don't mean I'm going crazy). Sometimes it's very hard to visualise what perceptions people have on you but somehow clues always drop that come to you at surface level, staring right at you in the eyes. Only then you realise that something has gone terribly, terribly wrong... Though people may not notice it but the clues that they leave behind hints. Very strongly. It might be a small matter to them but has a significant impact on others. Though they can talk to you in a friendly manner, but beneath their soul lies the inconvenient truth. The irredisputable fact that shields their facial emotions although they might have thought they have hidden it from you successfully; people can see through others just by the way they speak; their actions or the way they treat you in general. They can be good-natured but they can backstab you so hard that you lose so much blood internally in just a matter of seconds. When your heart sinks, they don't bother. When you are unwell, they don't care. When you're upset, they laugh away happily. When will things change for the better?
My wish... to treat people better so that others can treat me better.
My wish... to make up for all the mistakes I've done and hope that I can change the impressions others have.
My wish... that tomorrow can be a better day...
Snowman left his prints @ 9:35 AM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy Tiger Year! :)
Snowman left his prints @ 7:10 PM
